Zak walked into the living room,
his eyes stopping on a head full of blonde hair. He walked up behind the little
girl, kneeling and following her gaze toward the picture of Annie and Pete. He
smiled, remembering how happy she'd been on that trip to New York, and he put a
hand on the little girl's shoulder.
“Daddy, who's that lady in the
picture with uncle Pete?” she asked after turning to look at him.
“Annie, that's your aunt. She had
your name.”
“That's silly. Why would she have my
name?”
“Because, she was special.” Zak looked at his daughter's round face. “Just like you are,” he said and tapped
her little nose with each word before continuing. “She meant the world to me,
and if it hadn't been for her, you wouldn't be here today.”
The girl's mouth made a little
circle. A look of wonder crossed her face. “Oh. Why?”
Zak heard Kevin enter the room, or
more so the gurgles of the baby boy in his arms. He turned, smiling at the man
who had been his husband the past five years.
“Because, sweetie, if it weren't for
your aunt Annie, your daddy and I would have never met,” Kevin said, and the
little girl turned her head fast, whipping Zak in the face with her golden
locks.
Zak blew and wiped at the strands
of hair that had stuck to his mouth, and he laughed. “I wish you two could have
met each other. She would have adored you.”
“I wish I could've, too. She's
pretty.”
“Hey, you know what?”
“What?” she asked, eager.
“It's not just a name you two share,
Annie. Your eyes are the same exact color as hers were. That same blue. It's
beautiful. You're beautiful.”
Zak watched as a smile blossomed
on his daughter's lips. His little Annie. He couldn't stop the tears that came
to his eyes. Both tears of sadness and joy. It had been six years since he'd
lost his sister. Four since his daughter had come along through surrogacy. He
thanked Jenn, Kevin's cousin, every chance he saw her for agreeing to carry their
first child.
He put his arms around her, hugging
her tightly to him. Then he stood, and she wrapped her legs around his waist,
giving his cheek a quick peck.
“I love you, daddy. Don't be sad.”
She put her small hand on his cheek, wiping at his tears.
“Sweetie, daddy's not sad,” he said,
looking over at Kevin who gave him an all too familiar look.
“But, you're crying.”
“That's because I'm so full of
happiness I don't know what else to do.” He gave her a good squeeze and kissed
her forehead before he returned her to the floor. “Hey, I think you should go
check out your room. It's down the hall. You can't miss it; the door's open.”
She smiled and scurried away. Zak had been on the fence about giving his sister's old room to his daughter, but
in the end, it felt right. It would have been awkward to have given her the
master bedroom. He shook his head at the thought, and then he noticed Kevin putting
little Ryan in his temporary crib.
“You sure you want to do this? We
have more than enough to buy another house,” Kevin said.
“Yeah. I miss this place, and it's
already paid for. With lil Annie starting pre-school soon, we agreed that a smaller
school would be better. We're doing this for the kids.”
“It doesn't have to be here. I
remember how hard it was on you to stay here after . . . I'm just saying that we
can rent this place out and get another. I'd rather not see you go down that
road. I don't think I can bear to see you that sad again, Zak.” Kevin walked over
to Zak and put his arms on his shoulders, linking his hands behind his neck.
“Now's different, Kevin. When I lost
Annie, I'd thought I lost everything. I didn't know if you'd stick around. I
was horrible. The mood swings. The crying. I still don't even know why you put
up with half the shit I put you through. Then you asked me to marry you.” Zak had been looking down at Kevin's shirt, but then he brought his eyes up to meet
Kevin's. “Can't you see that it's different. Before I thought I had nothing, and
now . . . I have more than I could've ever dreamed of.
“Yeah, I still get sad sometimes. I
still miss her, probably more than I should at times. But, I'm more complete
now than I ever was. I have you. We're married, and we have two beautiful kids.
And if Annie were here today, I know she'd be so proud of me.”
Tears streaked down Zak's face,
but his smile was big. He saw a glistening in Kevin's eyes. He maneuvered a hand
around Kevin's arms to wipe at the wetness on his cheeks. Kevin just continued to stare
at him.
Zak cleared his throat; he wasn't
quite sure what was going through Kevin's mind. “We should go check to see how our
daughter likes her room.”
Kevin's hands moved from the back of
Zak's neck and were on either side of his face almost immediately. “Wait.
Have I told you recently how much I adore you? How much I love you? Because I
do. I love you so much, and I don't know what I'd do without you.”
Kevin's mouth was on his. A searing heat
coursed from where their lips met and spread deep through his body. In that
instant he knew they'd made the right choice. He knew they were home.